[orthodoc]

You've been through so much this year - as monster once said to me, you didn't think you'd get through all this without some depression, did you?

Give yourself permission to grieve AND go see your doc. Sometimes life screws up our neurotransmitters and a little help from medication goes a long way. Sometimes a little talk therapy can do wonders. Depression doesn't tend to get better by itself, people don't will themselves out of it. If you're feeling like everything is pointless and you could walk under a bus without it mattering, get thee to a doctor posthaste!

You're a good, strong person who has taken too many hits. No shame in asking for a little help. We all need it sometimes. Many hugs.