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If I'd had a five year marriage contract I might still be married now.
I left because although I married a good, intelligent, decent man who loved me very much, I ending up simply not wanting him to touch me.
I thought I deserved a full and healthy sex life and so did he.
I think I would have tried harder, worked at it more had there been an end in sight.
I did love him, I honestly did. I hurt him very badly but he was able to move on a few years later and I never have been able to.
I haven't had sex with anyone for years now, and it's longer still since I had sex with someone who actually cares about me.
So maybe I put too much emphasis back on it in my 20s.
A couple of contracted terms later it wouldn't have mattered.
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