[Sundae]

Thanks V (and Glatt)
But you must consider that the only photos I've kept, and those that went into my Dad's album, were flattering ones. I was joking about a mouthful - I am amazed looking back at that photo, because I remember how I felt about myself at that time.
There are other unflattering ones which exacerbated how I felt.

I used to hide when the photos came through the post.
And I used to hide behind my hands when the cine-camera projector was set up in the living room. To this day if I chance upon a smell which reminds me of hot celluloid and/or burning dust I feel nostalgic but cringe slightly.

I can't change how I felt about me then.
But a tide has turned in me since posting here.
I've discussed my ptosis, posted fat, without make-up, damn near naked, one-shot-RFN pictures etc etc.
I credit the Cellar for all of the above.

In the years before I joined I would never have met up with any other Dwellars.
Because I was fat/ ugly/ deformed/ badly dressed/ or all of the above. But I joined.
I got to know people by their minds and their decency.
The physical stopped being such a barrier for me. Online at least.
And the first Dwellar I met was DanaC who laughed at my jokes and gave me practical help for no good reason I could fathom.

Meh. Probably the wrong thread.