Just something I wrote - some time ago... a few weeks before the wedding,
It was just one of those 'moments', something I tried to capture and put in a jar for safe keeping
Him is back in Australia now, cleaning up the last remnants of the life he left behind 5 years ago .... but this trip is fraught with under currents and tensions and unspoken fears, and a few tears here and there.
Me, I'm just waxing nostalgic - missing my husband, lost in the silence, tripping over memories, looking for memories, missing my husband, but more so missing the man I fell in love with 9 years ago.
*shrug* lost for explanations .... so you get the snippets, the snap shots, the dusty old memory caught in a bottle that doesn't maybe smell as fresh as it did then.....
Just me being stupid and believing he really is coming back, but not really *knowing* it