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When we were young and invincible. I know the thing you speak precise.

Sarge, not to make light of what you are going through but you could re-frame your experience in a positive light. In many ways you are in an enviable position; you are a clean slate and free to re-invent yourself. Obviously, you have a more limited set of choices than you did when you were young and invincible, but you are now older and wiser and in a better position to see what didn't work in the past and make new choices based on that.

The hardest part is letting go of what you want or wanted, letting go of the desire for something you can't have.