I absolutely understand what you're saying Ibby. You know what you need to do but doing it is something else entirely. Sometimes I think I'm just barely squeaking through.
Though I believe there are cognitive steps one can take to help themselves...I also understand that one does not just will away depression and anxiety. It is a continual struggle. A vicious circle even: you know you need to do this or that to help yourself feel better but it's like something is blocking you from doing this or that. Like there's a wall there you can't get through.
I'm sure it's difficult to understand for those who don't go through it. I would think I was crazy if I weren't me.* As it is, I make myself more anxious by comparing myself to all the 'normal' folks and I find myself horrified if they knew just how far I let things slide sometimes.
Hang in there.
*ch'yeah...I do know I'm a little crazy. It's part of my charm.
