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Heh ... in case of a zombie apocalypse I will never, NEVER 'give orders' to you, Bri!! I'll be begging for your help, lol! And I also will be liberal with the morphine, and the Xanax. :P

I also appreciate this place. Haven't been here long enough to say I've changed (officially been here six years but it's really only been a few months, then a six-year hiatus, and now a couple of months) but I've seen enough good, smart people here to know this is a good place. I learn things every time I surf this board, and I am alternately awed, inspired, and brought to incoherent laughter at the smarts and wit in this place.

I will also say - good ppl here. Having a new cancer diagnosis sucks. And you know what else sucks? Having people you thought were friends go silent, or run away. More people have reached out through the Cellar and said, hey - sorry, that sucks - than the folks I thought were my friends. And others in the Cellar have been unbelievably helpful and supportive and giving (yeah, I'm looking your way, Bri!). Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I've changed since six years ago when I first joined the board. I was very religious then, very conservative, very black and white about a lot of things. Not anymore. It's been a process over the six years I was away. Now I have no fixed, immovable political views - but I lean more left than right. I don't judge anymore, at least, I really try not to. Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. My new motto. And I have no fixed thoughts about spirituality anymore, as I mentioned in another thread. Sort of floating out there, just appreciating things, just observing. And trying not to inflict pain.