[morethanpretty]

Thanks sundae and limey and flint, oh just thanks everyone. I'm tearing up now y'all are so sweet.

I thought about disappearing too, just parking my car, leaving all my personal items behind and walking to a hospital. Spend at least a few days not being me.
Yesterday and today aren't so great. I'm starting to think caffeine is making me anxious and panicky lately so I'm gonna cut it down, but I've been relying on it to keep the drowsiness at bay. I'm drinking green tea now so we'll see how I do.