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Went to see Grandad on Saturday as Mum was away.
He thought I was Mum.
I mean many people say we look alike, but I did introduce myself clearly. And Mum does not have pink hair.

He is rarely completely in reality now. He listens and responds logically, but not about real events.
He was talking to Mum the other day about the people who came to see him from New Zealand, and how good of them it was to come all that way. He also asks her quite often where she is living now, and how she will be getting home. Mum's lived in this house for 39 years.

He is happy though. When I was there I got him a cup of tea - which he drank half of (in a beaker, through a straw of course) and put a couple of bits of Milky Way on his tongue. He thoroughly enjoyed it. I then massaged his feet, and again he was relaxed and smiling.

So although I doubt he'll go with the drama of previous scares, I think he is slowly slipping away. I know some people can last years without traces of their previous personality, but he is terribly thin, prone to infection and overall quite frail. I can't help thinking that without the desire to hold on, he might well be ready to leave us.

It's not upsetting me as such, just a reality check.