My relationship with my Mom? I love her, but I certainly havent always liked her, couldnt wait to put many hundreds of miles between us. Its taken a lot of time, but now I can see how much she's a part of me, and how much I'm her. Maybe the power thing has been somewhat settled, for now. We are very different people and have intimate knowlege of each other and for all my years of pulling away, I know I will hurt like hell when she's really gone. And if I go first it will be a big hole for her. Parent love is the really slow, molecular kind.
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