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Undertoad · 12-19-2001, 10:13 AM

<i>what (else) do humans get from/give to community?</i>

I've gotten a lot from the community.

When I was a kid they were hell-bent on beating me up or humiliating me. They were very effective, leaving me psychologically scarred for life.

As I got a little older, they were more interested in just seeing me fail in some way. But they didn't come right out and say this. They were discreet about it.

I told them I was lonely and they told me I was unacceptably desperate.

I figured out some truths and offered them, and they called me wacky and dismissed me.

I offered my valuable talents, and they told me I should be more oriented around how they operate.

I offered my love and they told me I was a dangerous stalker.

I offered my support and they told me it meant I held them in low regard.

I offered my friendship and they took advantage of me and cut me down.

I offered my insights and they ignored me.

I mortgaged my future to offer my goods for sale and they told me they have no use for such things.

I told them I needed help and they offered something that looked like help, but was not, at a very high hourly rate.

I told them their years of torture had left me unable to deal with them, and they offered me a pill to take, which did not really help but left me emotionally void, partially impotent, unmotivated, and caused tremendous weight gain causing me to no longer recognize myself. This weight gain, in turn, caused my family and friends to systematically put me down in the name of support.

I said enough, already! and went into my house and closed the garage door and closed all the blinds and rarely come out, and humanity seems happy with me at this point. Now we get along. Of course I am careful to not say anything meaningful to the neighbors. I have mastered the meaningless smalltalk that is required when the neighbors want to talk with me. That keeps them at bay. But I know that, if they knew what I was up to, they'd call the cops and have me put away in a moment's notice. Along with yet more brutalization.

So individual humans may be okay, but humanity can go fuck itself.

12-19-2001, 10:13 AM	#12
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	<i>what (else) do humans get from/give to community?</i> I've gotten a lot from the community. When I was a kid they were hell-bent on beating me up or humiliating me. They were very effective, leaving me psychologically scarred for life. As I got a little older, they were more interested in just seeing me fail in some way. But they didn't come right out and say this. They were discreet about it. I told them I was lonely and they told me I was unacceptably desperate. I figured out some truths and offered them, and they called me wacky and dismissed me. I offered my valuable talents, and they told me I should be more oriented around how they operate. I offered my love and they told me I was a dangerous stalker. I offered my support and they told me it meant I held them in low regard. I offered my friendship and they took advantage of me and cut me down. I offered my insights and they ignored me. I mortgaged my future to offer my goods for sale and they told me they have no use for such things. I told them I needed help and they offered something that looked like help, but was not, at a very high hourly rate. I told them their years of torture had left me unable to deal with them, and they offered me a pill to take, which did not really help but left me emotionally void, partially impotent, unmotivated, and caused tremendous weight gain causing me to no longer recognize myself. This weight gain, in turn, caused my family and friends to systematically put me down in the name of support. I said enough, already! and went into my house and closed the garage door and closed all the blinds and rarely come out, and humanity seems happy with me at this point. Now we get along. Of course I am careful to not say anything meaningful to the neighbors. I have mastered the meaningless smalltalk that is required when the neighbors want to talk with me. That keeps them at bay. But I know that, if they knew what I was up to, they'd call the cops and have me put away in a moment's notice. Along with yet more brutalization. So individual humans may be okay, but humanity can go fuck itself.