well I have my own personal filters to process things with. It is up to me if I like what I see or not.
Where you saw awesomeness I saw someone in a very bad place. Fear and loneliness to be exact and I would probably do something fun to get myself out of it.
No problem about your wrath. My point was not to kiss your ass but to say I think there is a good heart beneath your exterior self.
Case in point: You are able to talk like a rational human being with me instead of coming unhinged not that we both haven't been a little unhinged but at the time we both had a good reason I think.