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Monster - I've been a bitch recently.
I've thought about m feelings, my hurt, my needs.
I've written things that could really have hurt people, in order to resolve things for me.
Which is okay, mostly - but not when it makes you self-centred uber-bitch, which it seems to with me.
That's not me. At least I hope it's not.
Yeah, the me I know is hyper-sensitive to criticism. And can get over-emotional.
But the me I think I am doesn't get arsey and spread the hurt around.
I'm sorry.
I apologise.
To you and the other people I've been shitty to.
I would like to blame the change in meds and knowing my counselling was coming to an end.
Both are issues in my life, but I take responsibility for how they made me behave.
I was a bitch to Shawnee in a PM yesterday and it finally brought me round.
I don't like that side of me. That's not how I want to be.
Oh and FTR, she was great about it and it's all over.
I hope that's the deal with us too.
But the reason this is a post and not a PM is because I've been a bitch on the board too.
I hope this is out of character, so I hope people can see why I wanted to say sorry in public.
And I will send you all Fortnum and Mason hampers to show how much I've learned from this.
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