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Originally Posted by DanaC
Juni...is your husband aware of just how serious your BP situation is?
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Well now, actually I think he's in denial even more than I am. He hasn't said so, but I suspect he thinks I may be using it as an excuse to be lazy. Then again, that might just be my perception.
I guess I feel that the BP thing is my fault. It's my fault for being "out of shape" and overweight (the doctor said I should lose 30 #), for not taking it seriously when it started last year. If I had cancer, I could say this was something that happened to me - just bad luck, and I'm a victim. But this seems like such a self-inflicted problem. Of course I don't live much differently than the average person; it's not like I sit around all day eating fast-food, smoking and boozing. It is bad luck to get the genetic predisposition - on both sides, including the anxiety issues.
And when something is my fault, I tend to compensate for it by trying to prove it's no big deal. Like when you break something and say "well, I needed a new one anyway." I say, sure, I have this illness -- but hey, no big deal, it isn't gonna keep me from doing what I have to do.