[Sundae]

Apologised to Mum re drinking.
Tried to have a proper chat with her.
She said, "I don't know why you do it either. All I know is it makes us not like you."
This effectively ended the conversation.
I've been hearing this all my life - "I can't love you if", "I don't like you when" etc etc.

I would like to point out that I am not violent when drunk. Nor abusive. I did not steal from my parents to fund my drinking, and I disposed of my cans myself. I hid in my room the whole time.

This does not make it right. Of course not! And the potential for the opposite (above) is sadly always there. Except the violent and abusive parts.

I just wish they were different. As I'm sure they do me.
Oh yeah, and I want to die.