[darclauz]

Ya know... I don't care about black and white. But I lived on the west side of columbus, which is actually mostly mexican. we lived in a "Cheap" neighborhood, which was well on its way into a slum slide (and has now arrived). the guy who runs the complex is really pro-mexican (or whatever pc word i'm supposed to use here.... mexican american? latino? hispanic? i dunno) and its mostly mexican.

now...i know in my brain that all mexicans don't sit on the front stoop, drink beer, wear big cowboy hats, and manage to live without having a job. i know that most mexican moms don't let their kids run wild, leave their garbage on my patio, and play with dirt in my car (making sandcastles). and i know that MOST mexicans won't leave threats on my door cuz they think i'm somebody named "bruce" who owes them money (actually, i don't know who did that).

but when i left--to move into a 'lily white' neighborhood because i felt safe there--my head wasn't racist, but my heart was. i guess i just had so many bad experiences there with the mexicans...and never a good one... i go to macdonalds and can't communicate with the drive thru guy, because he only speaks spanish....i can't shop on the west side without running into some mom letting their kids go wild. i'm not as bitter about those years as i was, so maybe i just need some good to balance out the other ones.

interestingly enough, i had a good friend in that neigborhood that was black...and he was definitely a racist. he HATED the mexicans. funny how being hated because of your skin color (said the irish-italian) doesn't stop you from hating others.

so...in my head, i'm not. in my heart, sometimes i question.