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Originally Posted by monster

SG, you're trying to run before you can walk. Stay with your parents, stay on the sick, off the booze and on the diet/exercise program and off the self-criticism. Slow down on your recovery. You know what's wrong. The fact that just knowing what is wrong hasn't fixed it is not a good reason to beat yourself up some more. If it took a while to get there, it ain't goin' to be quick to get back.

How long is it since you had a drink?

You worry about money earned not being enough to pay the rent. Even if you earned enough, would you still have it all when the rent came due? Are you factoring in your spending "needs"

Again, you're trying to run before you can walk.

Get (really) sober, get (a little) more sensible with money, get happier and maybe spend some time and get some more qualifications so you can command the salary you need for the lifestyle you want.

You don't need a man to get a flat, you need determination and a little time

you can do it.

And once you've done it, the man thing will be a doddle