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My littlest girl went through something very similar. My oldest two were easy and weaned pretty painlessly, almost on their own, because they forgot to nurse and by the time they remembered, my milk was gone. My littlest, though, she was just as you describe... NEEDED to nurse to fall asleep, nursed for comfort, wouldn't take a bottle, got all of her liquid from the boob, basically. She didn't start sleeping through the night until she was almost four, and she would wake up numerous times throughout the night.
I honestly don't know what to tell you except that patience and time will get you through it. I don't remember how I made it through with my baby... that time is largely a blur. We did end up putting a twin-size bed next to our bed so that, while she had her own sleeping space, I was still present and didn't have to go far to nurse her at night. She's impossible to sleep with... head-buts and kicks and sleeps sideways, and is a noisy sleeper.
In time, she started to understand that other people have boundaries. That's one of the hardest things for kids to learn... that Mama is a whole other person and her body belongs to her... but it's very important. I know it's very popular these days to give breasts cutely little names for the kids to use and I feel that it encourages children to think of them as being a possession that is separate from their mother's bodies, and that can lead to difficulty in weaning, especially if you wean later, because the child perceives that yo are taking away something that belongs to them. Personally I have found that if you are always clear that your breasts are part of your body, and that sometimes nursing is uncomfortable or that you do not always feel like nursing, as the child gets older and starts to recognize their own boundaries, it's easier to accept.
I also recommend never letting your baby hurt you. If they bite, say "OW that hurts mama!" and remove the boob. If you are getting sore, tell your baby that you are sore from nursing so much and, you need a break... not the boobies, but YOU. Building boundaries, and being aware that your breasts are part of you and that you have feelings, are an important developmental step.
It sounds like your son is thirsty, and using you for a drinking fountain. I don't know what kinds of beverages you serve, but if you usually give milk, try instead having water on offer constantly. My youngest would not drink milk from a cup, but she did drink water, and once she developed a taste for it her nursing reduced tremendously. Try giving water with something that increases thirst, like bread, cheese, or even cookies, and see if in time he starts taking more water and nursing less.
He's still really little, and for many babies it's simply normal for them to nurse this much at this age... most of my tips are for weaning an older baby, but they might help you as time goes on. The hard part is getting through this stage intact! Doctors will tell you what's "average", but you have to take that with a grain of salt... just because the "average" baby nurses less and sleeps more doesn't make it at all abnormal for your baby to nurse more and wake up more!
Some parents are concerned that giving water instead of milk will compromise their baby's nutrition. If your child is over a year old, I would not worry about that at all. If he starts drinking water instead of nursing to satisfy his thirst, he will also start eating more because he'll be hungrier without the milk satisfying his nutritional needs.
Above all, take the best care of yourself that you can, and try not to feel guilty about your frustration or feelings of anger. It's normal and OK to feel that way, you just need to find ways to make this easier on both of you, whether it's adapting your life to met his needs, or trying new methods to coax him to change his habits.
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