Thanks so much to you all. I have caught myself "stinkin' thinkin'" and my theory is that I so believe something will go wrong, I make sure I remind myself what a loser I am so that when it does I at least can wallow in my worthlessness. This is the trait I have been working on overcoming, and I don't want to lend any more credence to the idea of self-fulfilling prophecy.
Funny aside though: sometimes I'll play a silly little game in the car: the next song that comes on relates to (insert whatever event I want it to describe.) On my way to my 2nd interview, I turned on the radio and We Are the Champions was in the middle of playing, so I said "OK, the NEXT song is my omen song."
Next song was Tom Petty--"Baby even the losers, get lucky sometimes."

Have you even known such a weirdo who isn't afraid to admit it?