My first driving lesson this morning was okay, but I feel really frustrated because my instructor wouldn't just shut up and let me try... well, driving! I'd try to turn the wheel a little, and he'd jerk it back. If I was going slow, he'd say "Give it gas, girl, give it gas! The car will stop if you don't give it gas!" (Thank you, Captain Obvious. I may be a first-time driver but I'm not a complete idiot.) If I sped up a little, I'd feel the brake pedal disappearing under my foot as he braked on my behalf from his side of the car. I'm still at the "getting used to how the car moves" part, and my instructor was already at the "hey, you totally fucked up that four way stop" section.
I asked to take my husband's car out, this evening, so I could practice a little, but he drives a stick shift. Bad idea. After I stalled the second time, I burst into tears, mumbling something along the lines of "I just want to drive in circles!" We're borrowing a friend's automatic tomorrow so I can do exactly that.
For now, though, I just feel like a complete and utter failure.
