[lookout123]

I had a breathtaking revelation a few years ago that has never really been forgotten. Lil Lookout was newborn, we were just on the upswing from being flat broke, and I had a career decision sitting in front of me that was really stressing me out. I'd really gone into a funk at my incompetence and inability to deal with adult life with some sort of plan and confidence. At some point while I was completely frazzled with hundreds of things spinning in my skull and rocking Lil Lookout back to sleep at 3 in the morning, I just stopped as it finally hit me... My dad didn't have a fucking clue either.

Sure that seems simple enough, but up until that point in my late 20's it had been a touchpoint for me that the people I respected were plowing their way through life with confidence and wisdom. But then it all kind of clicked as I realized that nobody had a clue. Everyone wakes up and makes their choices, hoping they are doing the right thing and they just keep doing the best they know how to do. To me it was pretty big revelation that really helped me start moving forward with life.

I'm looking at 40 a few years down the road and I know that I'll have other revelations and I find that kind of exciting and terrifying.