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Originally Posted by Brianna
yeah? feel suicidal?
then count it as a win.
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That's been every day of my life for me then - yay!
Even at my worst, all I felt is profoundly disappointed that I made it through the night, and panic at another day to get through.
Of course at my worst, the plan was always to scrape enough money to get to the off licence in order to drink myself back to sleep in as short a time as possible.
My suicidal thoughts always, ALWAYS came at night.
One of my favourite childhood series was What Katy Did... And in one of them (
What Katy Did at School I think) the phrase "morning brings counsel" was used. It's a quaint expression, but I've used it to get through many a bad night, nights I doubt Susan Coolidge ever envisiged.
One of her poems, which I used to have on my desk when the dark days were still light enough that I was working, yet murky enough that I needed it:
New Every Morning
Every morning is a fresh beginning,
Listen my soul to the glad refrain.
And, spite of old sorrows
And older sinning,
Troubles forecasted
And possible pain,
Take heart with the day and begin again.