[Sundae]

On Saturday I was at my lowest ebb ever body-wise. I came back from the gym feeling that I hadn't achieved anything over the last few months, that I was fatter than when I started, that I was only getting "gym fit" ie nothing that counted in the real world... You name a negative feeling about exercise and I was feeling it.

I talked to HM but we weren't really on the same page (he blamed it on me taking time off over Christmas). So I just struggled through another session on Sunday and am slowly feeling better.

I think it's my 3 month rule. I tend to give up new resolutions, health kicks, relationships, crushes, hobbies etc at around 3 months. I just seem to run out of enthusiasm. Because I was back on track as of January 2nd it interrupted the usual cycle so I was hit with it twice as bad this weekend.

Planned actions - KEEP GOING - of course, have my reassessment with Lewis on Thursday, take another picture on Sunday and again hope this shows some change - at least remind me of how far I've come.

I hope that my reassessment will address any practical concerns anyway. After all I have been following a plan laid down by a professional rather than making it up as I go along. I have faith that he will reassure me, remind me I agreed I was in it for the long haul and make enough changes for me to feel I am being challenged again.