[BigV]

Griff:

You can do this.

I don't miss alcohol. I don't miss being drunk. I definitely don't miss the misery of being hung over. I don't miss that hole in my pocket where my money used to be. I don't miss the fear of doing something stupid/illegal/harmful while being drunk.

I still drink, just club soda or something similar. I still get happy, but from circumstances, not substances. I still get sick, just not self inflicted. I still spend my (practically all my) money, just on stuff that lasts longer than one night. And I still do stupid/illegal/harmful things. I have plenty of room for self improvement. But I am trying to find new mistakes to make, instead of repeating the same stupid/illegal/harmful ones I did while drinking. I flatter myself by considering that learning.

I know you have an abiding love of learning too. I wish you success with your efforts to learn what you're seeking. It's there, and you're able. You can do it.