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I can't pretend to know what you are going through. I do wish to suggest some things that might help though. Using humor is only inappropriate if it's disrespectful. Try to think of the things that made her laugh. The things she thought were funny. It might make you laugh and cry both, but remembering her happiness will be good for you right now.
Be strong for the others right now. I suspect she would have appreciated the effort. I know this is hard, but it might be good for you. You will feel better about yourself and taking care of her loved ones will honor her memory. They will almost certainly take care of you in turn. Just try to last through this first, worst part.
Your loss saddens me, but the strength you showed sharing it here gives me hope. Just stay strong for a little while and you'll make it through.
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A friend will help you move. A true friend will help you move a body.
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