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I honestly don't know how to put this, I've been in this house descending into more pain, with more spasms, eating and sleeping less every day for a month.
Been in this bed, in this room, other than one trip to my parents across the street, which nearly put me in the hospital, that entire time.
Every day I keep thinking "tomorrow I will go outside, to the tobacco shop, to see Harry Potter, to play with my son for a bit, ANYTHING", but it just rains more and the barometer just keeps moving...
My son is at my mother-in-law's and I am encouraging her to keep him all of this week and my wife to go out with her sister tonight and to stay with him all day today.
They don't need to see this any more than they have to.
I am LOSING it and feel... this is hard to admit, but I need to get it out... I don't know how much more of this I can take, I need the weather to change. I honestly don't know how much pain the human body can take.
My chest, jaw and ears are killing me still. I am very worried about having another stroke or heart issues.
Again, I am sorry about griping about this again...
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