It's not just you..
Funny, I am almost exactly the opposite situation as you, but feel the same way. Let me explain.
I work at a large ISP. I do some really innane shit (Basically, I take software requirements from users and document them so the developers can program without having to interact with people.) My job sucks ass. I hate it. I hate the politics. I hate my boss(es). I hate the corporate-ese. I hate the actual work. However, I love the stability, the money is decent, and I'm good at what I do.
So, we've established that I want a new job. Hell, I might even want a career. But what? I didn't go to college (booooring), and even if I did go back, I have no idea what I would study. Also, there's that whole "being used to a steady income" thang.
In the meantime, I end up going day-to-day being miserable and waiting for the weekend to come. I've looked for other jobs, but I can't really keep my current standard of living on $10 an hour. And besides, there are lots of freshly minted college graduates out there willing to work for cheaper than me, the degreeless wonder.
So, anyhow, I have nothing really helpful to tell you. I know exactly how you feel. Keep trying, though. You never know when something will pop up. (I ended up in the hospital, and my condition was exacerbated from stress on the job. So I quit without knowing how I would eat or pay the rent. While I was in the hospital, I got a call from an employer I had interviewed with about 3 months prior. They hired me over the phone, and I ended up basically not ending up being unemployed at all. So, there's my story of hope for ya.)
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