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Originally Posted by LabRat
My question is this Shawnee, if you feel close enough to 'us' that you are actually hurt by what you felt were personal attacts by some, then why not share with us what exactly is going on personally, so that we may understand as well? There is a high likelyhood that, even if someone can't directly help you here, just by 'talking' about it, the perspective you'll get is worth the time it took to post ten-hundred-fold.
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My job has been getting increasingly worse, with me unable to handle the stress in my personal life let alone what is going on here. But, so many people have given me good advice about the job situation, so I don't want to be a broken record. I am the only one who can change the job, but I'm either too scared or too complacent to do so.
I have had some health issues, from a recent illness that really knocked me on my butt and I haven't fully recovered from. Attending the doctor for that, they found my BP to be through the roof, and instantly put me on meds for that. The combo illness/weird medication makes me very worn out, tired, and irritable. Personal life, I am trying to stop letting my ex b/f use me for everything I have, to quit feeling sorry for him. I am in dire financial straits, though not all his fault, he had much to do with it. So here I am, 42 years old, feeling like a child, feeling lonely and worthless, and trying to reach out yet pulling back out of fear of being hurt. Not a good combination. That's it in a nutshell, I guess. I also try to remember that there are those who are dealing with MUCH more than I could imagine, so then I feel guilty for wallowing.
Yeah, I"m pathetic.
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Originally Posted by wolf
The apology is appreciated.
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Thank you wolf, you are showing class that I most definitely lacked. The horrible things I said didn't even really mean anything. I'm not sure what either of you look like; all those awful things just came out. I hope you realize that.
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Originally Posted by BigV
The most important step forward is this thread. You don't drown if you fall face down in the mud, you only drown if you stay there. Glad to see you on your feet again. |
Thanks BigV. As some predicted, I am quite embarrassed and ashamed. I'm not even sure who that girl was. Shawnee's evil twin?
Thank you all for your support. I apologize again to all of you for behaving like such a bratty child.