No, no you haven't broken up with her - that happens when either you
don't want her any more, or you do but you
know you can't have her any more. It seems you pretended to her that you've broken off with her, and not very well at that.
I was wondering about your ages and you have told us, 18 and 19. That is very young to commit for life to one person (and GOD how I hated being told that at that age

!).
I really really feel for you Fresh, but having watched this thread from the start, I'd say that this is not the ONE for you ...
[hugs]