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Actually I have been on paxil for more than a year. getting blood tests every other month to make sure there is no damage to my liver. I am on a pretty high dosage. I also take nerve pills for very bad days. I was wonderful all year on meds. I couldn't even believe the me who was me! I loved me. But I do have my moments. I was thinking insanely over the holidays. I snapped. I feel like I am getting no where, and no where fast. I feel like time is running out, but have no idea why. My brother lost his job, his boss had just packed up and left. he did not get fired or do anything in the wrong. I have problems with obssessing, so his problem of being out of a job, became more annoying to me than him. My mother was here, and she is negative ALL the time. I couldn't really afford Christmas. There is alot more also. Everything was just piling up, and I snapped. I know I will still have my days, and sometimes it might even be days at a time. But I feel better knowing that the doctor can help me. It gives me something to look forward too. Before I couldn't see any solution except to kill myself. But thank God, I know better than that, and never would act out on it. I just needed desperately to talk to someone. I was dying on the inside.
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