[smy]

You have got a lot of wise advice.

I'd say it is not good to escape too much the negative feelings. If they come, just meet them. They will not last forever. I mean acute emotions. They are ment to guide to solutions. If you do not find any in certain period, do not be dissapointed. Next time can be more successfull. Still it is not wise to taste too much hard emotions.

It might help to know something if you know the background of your feelings. I do not know for sure. You did a lot for your relationship and for him?. Helping someone does also help yourself. Sometimes you need to help someone to forget your own problems. They shrink. To give up a relationhip of this kind you have to face the life in a new way. Without the "help" of him.

Certainly you made an big effort at least for your own future. And all turn out to be waste of time. The are resalts that should be accepted by the time.