That sounds bad Els, but it could be some compassion fueling it.
My Moms been in the Hospital/rehab loop, a bunch of times this year.
I asked my Brother, who lives with her, "Is this the point where from here on, when she dies, we'll all say it's for the best?"
He understood, saying it was a fair question.
He also said, yes.
There comes a point when the person you love isn't having fun anymore.
Every day is a struggle, painful for them and everyone who loves them.
Of course you do everything humanly possible to make their life as pain free as you can.
But it's a heavy blow to their ego, self image, pride, that you're sort of helpless to affect, no matter how much you love and respect them.
The natural progression. The natural order of things. To some, their chosen Deity's will.
But that doesn't change the fact that it sucks..... for the caregiver and recipient.
Wolf is a strong woman, but she's doing a really tough job and is going to need all the good vibes we can send her.