I'm totally confused on the love front at the moment.
I *want* to be treated like a princess, or at least nicely. I wont go overboard and say I am looking for the perfect guy, who will treat me like a princess and who is house trained, or can at least clean up after himself, with no really bad habits... I dont even need someone to look after me - I'm totally self sufficient.
But why is it that I sent the guy who could (and did) treat me like that away? and the lovely guy who is dead set on treating me like that....I have no spark with?
Yet the guy that makes my heart flutter with insecurity, doesnt really let me in (I'm hoping that will change as things progress?) and although is a *nice* guy, doesnt display any of the things I am looking for... HE makes my heart go boom-boom in the most frustrating way??
I think I'm bipolar, I spend all day going "end it, its never going to work, end it before he breaks your heart" to "I love him, I dont want to be without him". Fuck me, I'm like a teenager again
