So whats the 13th step then? Get drunk, do something horrific and then start all over with a clean slate at step 1?
I read things like this...
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Originally Posted by Rock Steady
Anyone that took control themselves was not an alcoholic in the first place. It's hard to understand why someone else can't take control of themselves, by themselves. But that is the nature of the disease.
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...and I start to doubt myself. I begin argueing that maybe I'm not really an alcoholic and I could control myself if I drank because, after all, some other people don't think I am.
My spouse went out of town recently and my first thought as I left the airport after dropping him off was, I could have a beer or two and no one would ever know!!
Then I come to my senses and realize I'm trying to delude myself. It doesn't matter what Rock Steady or people on a message board think, and it doesn't matter if my spouse never knows that I sneaked a drink or two. I don't want to lose my hard earned sobriety or my self respect. So I get busy with other things and try to stop thinking about what a cold beer or a Seabreeze tastes like. And I go another day without a drink.
Stormie