rkzenrage

I'm not good at this. Don't really know what to say, but I have to do something because I'm losing who I am.
There are no pain groups in my town, which is nuts because I live in Central FL, there are more sick people here than healthy.
All the pain sites I have found on-line are, I just don't know how to put it other than bitch sessions or people talking about their cats.
Perhaps I'm a snob, but I can get that anywhere.
There is no way to really ask for what I'm talking about.
Nor do I want to really discuss this, details, here, now... but I can't do this alone any more... be around people who talk around what is wrong with me.
I hate games.
Don't even know if I'm going to hit send...
Does everyone in chronic pain turn into the crazy cat lady? I can't be the only one who still reads, who still wants to go to rock concerts in my power chair... can I? I can't be the only one who wants to die sometimes.
Who feels like a thing that is sucking the life out of everyone else... I can't?
Perhaps I am.