And right after submitting that post, I thought about how painful your reasons for not wanting the same thing she does. Damn...is there any way at all you could make the experience as great as having your son even though you're so limited psychically? That must sound so lame, I don't have a clue, I just wish it could be okay for you to be as involved as possible emotionally. This has got to be a damn tough thing for you.
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