[Catwoman]

But I don't know enough about it to go running! It might be a terrible mistake that will fuck me up forever! It doesn't seem right to go, and where would I go anyway? Running around the country, perpetually escaping the reality of a man who doesn't love me? It'll be with me close enough whether he's there or not, so why make it harder. At least by staying I have his company, and who knows, things might change. I've come to realise you can't predict your life, and I need to stay in touch with what I feel to know what's right, and if anything, this situation has helped me be me, and be honest.

The last thing I want is another guy. Maybe for sex, but not a relationship. I couldn't give him anything. Self-help books aren't really self-help at all - it's relying on someone else's words and experience to help you out of a self-destructive rut. Besides, I think he's the best self-help I could get.