[Elspode]

I'm an alcoholic, Buster, now sober about 355 days a year. I've managed to go from something like two cases of beer and a half gallon of whiskey per week to a bit less than that per year over the past eight years. I drank pretty much every other day for about 25 years, give or take a few months.

It hasn't been (still isn't) easy. Sometimes chemical relaxation is the only answer even now. However, I've learned to ask better questions than I used to, and then work on the answers without ethanol being involved. It is a highly worthwhile pursuit to get yourself in a better place, and I recommend it without hesitation.

If you think you have a problem, you have a problem. Go see your friends at the VA if you need to. I had the advantage of a supportive spouse, a lot of friends, and a real nasty stubborn streak to get 'er done, so I managed to evade formal treatment, AA or any of that crap. YMMV.

You do what you need to do to deal with it. Let us know how it goes. Let us know if you wanna talk.