Well not exactly. I have now accepted a job in the new incarnation of my company - as a sub-division of another company. It's all terribly boring and the job will be terribly boring, but at least it's guaranteed income, pay rise and a semi-paid holiday. Think I will use the month off to decide what I really want to do. Although today they offered me a large cash sum on top of my salary not to go away, I turned it down. I must be mad, but I think this trip will do me good mentally, which is worth more than any financial reward. (*takes deep breath - I hope!!)