The things we do.
 

As we read our way around the cellar over and over we see the fragility of our shared experience. Personally I feel like I play whack-a-mole with the behaviors and life-style choices which are hurting me. That feeling must be more immediate for Infinite, Ortho, Sundae, and Buster right now. Several others of us are managing very dangerous physical and mental health issues with more or less success. I dunno where I'm going with this, just feeling my own mortality amid the more immediate pain of others. This is wandering but I hope everyone can reflect on what they need to stay above the grass.

I need to:
1) not drink
2) manage my work stress and commit to balance
3) get enough exercise to feel alive
4) get back into meditation
5) love my family

*2 - I've been asked about taking that management gig again, which I'm sure with my personality would turn into an all-consuming black hole of stress

I read your sig line and take it to heart. Life ain't always easy. So we have to focus on the good as best we can, and revel in those things.

I need to:

1) Decide what I want to be when I grow up
2) Not isolate
3) Not catastrophize
4) Remember that I am loved
5) Keep being me: even when the intensity of certain aspects of me scares some people. ;)

me too. i say it to myself and others, alarmingly frequently.

just, ya know.

I need:
1. to remember that stasis is death, momentum may be hard, but its what makes me sane
2. to remember that my husband loves me - his demonstations may be different than others, but it's non the less real
3. to remember that I am living the life that I want, if I only live it
4. to do better at minding my health
5. to assure myself that I am a multi-talented, multi-faceted woman

It warms my heart to see you all off to such an early start on planning your New Year's resolutions.

You ARE going to procrastinate aren't you?

Of course you are.

like walking in the rain and the snow
when theres nowhere to go
when you're feeling like a part of you is dying...

:snicker:

I need to:

1. Beat the cravings and eat the right foods
2. Be satisfied with the things I accomplish
3. Demand less of my children
4. Quit wishing for life to just hurry up
5. Remember to show my care for others instead of just thinking it

Clod, your wishes remind me of myself. Almost exactly.

Ugh. I'm pushing harder, in multiple areas, than I ever have before. I honestly drill through re-creating this type of list, throughout the course of every single day, and usually conclude that I don't know what else I can do. I guess,

1) Be more forgiving of myself and others
2) Be more appreciative of myself and others

3) Narrow down the list of areas I will focus on
...a) Areas to research, study
...b) Balance of time, work vs. study
...c) Time spent on networking activities
...d) How important is it to have a perfect physique?
...e) Am I giving myself downtime, or goofing off?

4) Reduce inaction via over-analysis (procrastination)

5) Take more time to stop and listen to people
6) Not snap and bite people's heads off

7) Get more sleep, consistently
...a) Process the above 10 items in a away that makes this possible

8) Remind myself what I am able to accomplish
9) Forgive myself for my faults and past mistakes

10) See the light at the end of the tunnel

The James Taylor song, "...shower the people you love with love..." always makes me think, damnit I need to do more of that. I've been trying to stay more in touch with my friends. I've been trying to balance the time I spend with my kids vs. the time I spend with my spouse. For God's sake there's only so many hours in the day. I try to spend the time that I have as quality time.

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Want to see a guy who has ƒucked up beyond recognition, but isn't beating himself up about it? I guess you can't move forward while you're dragging around every bad thing you've ever done, or thought about yourself. This guy, I don't know how full of sh!t he is (he doesn't have a good track record in this regard) and I can't believe some of the acts he admits to, but I guess you have to be able to be honest about how ƒucked up you are, or else you're just stuck there, forever.

Thing is I don't do New Years resolutions. I commit to things when they're relevant, like now.

This one

You rebel you. Heaven forbid that anything be relevant at New Year's. :rolleyes:

fuck off