I am done
 

My job has been offered to one of my fellow residents. The job in smalltown, that is - developing the Occ Med department at the county hospital, the job I did for six months before starting residency and in December was given verbal assurance would be mine next July, contract to be written up this spring and per diem work through the next year to consult on the building of the new clinic; income and benefits that would care for my medical condition (hopefully not necessary).

My colleague finishes in June; July 2013 is clearly a better short-term solution for the county hospital than July 2014, even though my fellow resident has no intention of staying more than a couple of years. He sees smalltown as a place to save some money before heading off to better places and things. He's a nice fellow, nothing against him personally.

Could this have anything to do with the fact that smalltown hospital knows I have cancer? Noooo .... no way to prove it, anyway.

I can change my rotations to work toward doing consultant work, and it might work out better for me in the long run. Less stress, less hurry. But working in a situation with social contact, and in a professional milieu, was something I was looking forward to. It sounds pathetic at this stage of my life but a little professional recognition was going to be welcome.

It is what it is, and life is what it is. Enough said.

No more investment, no more worry. From here on in I simply observe. I am done caring.

:(

Oh no!! I'm so sorry to hear

dammit

Fuck it. So sorry Ortho.

Sent by thought transference

This sounds complex, social contract, professional recognition, verbal contract, differing schedules...

I can hear the disappointment and resignation in your voice, and I'm sorry to hear that. I've been in situations where what was said was not what was delivered. I those cases, I suffered much more than the organization--I'd lost a whole job whereas they'd lost one mule on a big team. I hope your suffering is only as long as it needs to be. And I sincerely hope that the "better for you in the long term" comes true in spades.

:( This sounds so sexist. Man better than woman. :mad:

Nah, because she's Canuck. ;)
Fuck. So now you concentrate on your health, until the next door opens. Disappointing but may be better for you in the long run.

Hey ortho, I bet you really hate the medical profession right now. ;)

Definitely sucks though. Are you sure you have no recourse on the verbal agreement?

Shitty deal.

That really sucks. Sorry ortho. :(

I was thinking a lot about this last night and came here to post what I see Bruce has already written.

Looking at the situation in another light, this takes a lot of pressure from you and allows you to devote more of your energy to healing yourself. There is no shortage of opportunities for someone as talented as you.

Give yourself some breathing time and have faith in yourself and the cosmic muffin that you'll end up in a situation better than you could have imagined.

And if it makes you feel better, to hell with them.

Yes, who ever heard of a woman doctor? What are things coming to?

I still have to finish the program so the work is the same for the next 15 months. But it forces me to rethink what I'll do after, and maybe working less, or working differently, will be better for the long run. Still - I feel betrayed. Now even if they offered me something, I don't know that I'd take it. There's no sense that they're being honest anymore, they'd probably ditch me the first moment they could. On the other hand - it's benefits, being on the medical staff, yada yada. Whatever; seems it's out of my hands.

Thanks for the good wishes.