Oh and tonight Everything is making me feel like reaching for the knife. but mostly the idiots at LARA (the Michigan Employment Agency/whatever people), the thoughtless and unappreciative assholes in my life. And getting old. and depression. or is this thread like when people ask "How are you?"


I'll be right over here in the pool of blood.

Monster, remember the discussion after you had that health detour? How one of the reasons you had trouble getting back up to speed, and my personal opinion as to a primary cause in the first place, IS YOU DO TEN TIMES WHAT A NORMAL PERSON DOES.

Christ, you're on full tilt boogie all the time, making schedules and making sure the whole tribe follows them. Plus your own training/cheer-leading/do-gooding schedule on top of that.

Don't put more pressure on yourself as a result of judging what others do or don't do by comparing them to yourself.
Remember you ain't average. :hug:

The road is long
With many a whining kid
That leads us to swim meets and goals
...
The coffee's strong
Strong enough to keep her awake
She ain't average
She's our monster...

No, this is NOT about 'how are you?' 'Fine, thanks.'

I understand how things come to the point of making you reach for the knife ... or at least see it as a viable option. I reached the point of truly planning and that was scary. I managed to call a halt and change things, but it's a bad place to be. If you're totally frustrated but not yet making plans I'd ask you to take three big steps back and reach out for help. We don't want to find you over there in the pool of blood.

PM me anytime.

I wrote a long post and it crashed.

summary;

thanks gang. doing better today. sorted a few people out. didn't cry at all after two days of nothing but. onward.

I like logic and rational things and depression is neither, apparently.