Such a tough decision to have to make. You did right. You have a right to be safe.

Sent by magick

Anon, that sounds really hard. I'm sorry you are in this place, but you know you did the right thing.

Bleh. It can seem like Life is serving extra shit helpings to people sometimes. You get through it. Keep going! Sorry you're in a tough patch. As always, anything I can do, just reach out.

You absolutely have a right to be safe from violence. Good for you.

Long time whiner, first time poster, in this thread at least.

sorry anon, I'mma let you finish...

I don't have your troubles, and for that I'm grateful. I'm sorry you have them though, fucking knucklehead children, amirite?

My whine is about this SHIT attitude I have. Didn't used to be this way, and it won't be this way in the future, cuz it's not sustainable. It ranges from distraction to loneliness to worthlessness to suicide. The attitude, obviously, since I'm sitting here typing this shit. It's like quicksand, a tarpit, a briar patch. It catches and sticks and all my efforts to free myself further entangle me.

Being alone makes it worse. Ironically, being not alone makes it easier to be distracted from the important life work I have to get done to, you know, keep on keepin on. I just hate it.

I can't seem to help my own self.

I do reach out, all lines are busy now, so there's this sorry ass post. fuck it. Here's your mic back.

I know exactly what you're saying. We all know shit happens but nobody warns us how often. Sometimes it feels like continuous,
Sisyphus is a candyass compared to us.

I found salvation in a website (I think it was death clock but there are others) that told me I will die on Oct 6th, 2021, so I just have to hold on awhile longer.

I hope you can find your way back to normal... well, at least acceptable to you... without going that far.
Maybe it's all in your accepting what is as OK.
Maybe not trying so hard to change it will let it change itself.
You know, just deal with one day at a time.

Disclaimer:
I wasn't even on TV, didn't stay at a Holiday Inn Express, and full of shit.

I feel for you, anon. The obligations have to get met, but the obligations make it feel even worse.

But anonymous or not, as a dwellar, I can say for sure that you're not worthless to me, anyway.

I hear ya. I am constantly in my own damn way and it sucks. Stepping back and nurturing a sense of gratefulness can make headway. Believe it or not in this moment there is always something to hook on to.

There are, indeed, times when life just piles all the shit on, and sucks away your attitude and it's all just too much.
You've said this is temporary. You will come out the other side. And meanwhile we're all here for you.

Sent by magick

You don't have to do anything.

*I found salvation in a website (I think it was death clock but there are others) that told me I will die on Oct 6th, 2021, so I just have to hold on awhile longer. *

Mine comes up Friday December 16th 2061. 41 more years. I'm cool with that.

Hmm, somehow you get nearly 2 years more than I do... I'm supposedly going out in January 20th 2060, a couple months after my 79th birthday. Feels low.

Yeah, mine was shocking. January 19, 2041. They have me clocking out at age 73. Actuarial tables say I have until 79.5 if everything is average. If my health and lifestyle are factored in, I should have until 83 or so.

28Jan31 is my day.

Did you choose optimistic? I am the Grand optimist.


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My uncle Willie was 91. I'll be 91 in 2061. Long as I make it to 2050, I'm ok with it. I wanna see them figure out cold fusion.