I just wanted to say (the feelings soapbox thread)
 

I'm beyond all levels of miserable today. Kind of hoping owning it and giving voice to it helps me turn it around :( I'll let you know how that goes. Or if I don't.... it didn't go well...

If there's anything you just need to say...have at it

I just wanted to say I hear your misery and I hope it gets better. I was so miserable/twitchy/irritable last night that I actually had to leave my house (and everyone in it) and walk around the neighborhood by myself for upwards of half an hour. It only helped a little. But today I do feel better, and I hope you see a better day tomorrow, too.

Half an hour!

I hear you, but you need more than that.

When misery sets its sights on me, I leave too; but, I do it with style...

monster, I see you clearly in my mind's eye and I wish things could get easier for you

As for myself, I'm losing my motivation/ability to stay in touch, which I was the worst at to begin with. I'm not good at telephone, my socialization was always to occasionally be in the same room with people. It's like drifting away from shore, the old life is getting smaller and more distant.

This is all too wearing.

:) Thanks all. I did eventually get my shit together. I did the requisite check-in for unemployment online, made a business call and acted on the outcome, went out and picked up prescriptions and milk -masked and gloved much as I hate it-, decorated the cake for my 21-today Bday Boi, rummaged out some half decent steak from the freezer that was definitely in need of eating and cooked it half-decently and served with rice, asparagus, mushrooms and onions (not one of those dishes was butter-free), then we did cake which had sparkly candles and was lit using the awesome fire-breathing dragon lighter birthday boy made me for christmas, so I got there in the end (just -we sat down to eat at 11:11pm)

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shit, the pictures are huge, sorry. Cannot be arsed to fix right now

I lied :)

They're fine, the picture of the awesome cake is only 3.333 wide with 180m resolution and the other is smaller.
Maybe you got arsed after but they're cool. Oh, you lied, nevermind. :haha:

PS, glad you found your tenacity and everything went cool.

thanks :)

Isn't he gorgeous? It's a sign of how fucking rough my day was that he agreed to pose -he hates having his picture taken even more than I do -it used to be a bond we shared -people were always surprised when I didn't require that he smile for pictures (including the school ones) or even be in them if it wasn't necessary

He's handsome! Glad you turned your day around.
You did say we could have at it ...
I am torn between wanting my mum around: the forty - sixties year old woman who was such a good friend to me, we had such fun and she was a rock and a fount of good advice and courage in difficult times;
and being fucking glad that the seventy to seventy eight year-old mother I had increasingly to care for as she got more and more bonkers and frail has gone and isn't on my worry list any more.

I admire your use of butter.

Lovely pictures, monster!

I hear you, limey

Limey, cherish the 25ish great years that many of us never have, rationalise the 8 years was a small price for the preceding 70, and be grateful you don't have to make a choice anymore. :thumb:

I know, xoB, and I do. And mostly it’s OK, but in these extraordinary times I could do with her help.


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My sisters have been getting on The Marine's case because the road he walks each day is pretty sketchy. Yeah, he could fall but he needs that time out of the house and if he does fall he's not alone in the woods somewhere. Dad and I talked about it and I gave him another option but I'm not gonna stop him.

Hey Flint, I hear you too. And even if you do drift away from shore, the water amplifies sound so we'll hear you if you holler

lol I don't think that's science, but thanks

:D it was worth a try ;)

You should make yourself sign in to a Cellar zoom meeting (see the "Virtual Forks" thread.) You can just sit and observe, you don't have to talk if you don't want to.

True dat.


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Yeah -like Clodfobble -she signs in, flashes her boobies, then wanders off to save the world.... all the while eavesdropping, I'm sure ;)

Hey, I can't help it that my webcam is inexplicably placed at the bottom of my laptop screen instead of the top...

Monster! Is that your tiny little dude? Man, he grew up. Handsome lad.

tbh I don't know what a "virtual fork" is. It's like a skype meeting??
would it be advisable to maybe change the name of the thread??

It is a zoom meeting trying to re-create "plastic forks" a real life meeting which I always avoided one way or another. This is easier. Limey is your guide.

Yeah, just a normal Zoom meeting. The name is a reference to an in-person get together some Dwellars pulled off about 15 years ago.

Well that's my middle dude, but he is shorter than his little brother (but taller than his older sister and me)

I've been wondering what the term actually means as well.

Mind you, by the time a new word or phrase has come to my attention, it has usually acquired the tag [archaic] in the dictionary.

Anyway, I think that I can now safely dismiss the possibility of Virtual Forks being a town in North Dakota.

Look here.

and here.

Light is beginning to dawn!

Thank you. :thumb:

Um... that's what he and Flint were talking about.

right, right. I followed both those well researched archival links from before my time and found they're both pointing to IRL Forks.... I was hoping to lure the reader to the newfangled *Virtual Forks*. y'know. You should drop in. audio, video, whatevs.

No camera.

There is an audio only capacity.

:yesnod:

I think you guys are barking up the wrong tree with the audio only thing:

:haha:

xoB said he doesn't have a camera. He didn't say he didn't have a monitor.

Heck, I ran across somebody who thinks "cloy" is an unheard-of verb. Real headshaker, that.