2016 Must Die...2017...Um...Jeez
 

So...tonight is my 14th anniversary of joining Teh Cellar. I am doing much the same thing tonight as I was over a decade ago...staying home, being warm and comfy with my wife (different wife, but hey...), and surfing the Interwebz. There will be what should be Dick Clark on TV, there will be champagne, there will be an awareness that we all need next year to be better than this year. I am nothing if not consistent.

May 2017 bring us all closer. May 2017 spare us the constant demise of our loved ones, our icons.

And, as always...I wish you all a Nappy Ho Year.

Happy New Year Els! And to all my Cellar friends! X


Sent by magic.

Yup.

(I had put it in the tag cloud)

Happy new year to all, hoping 2017 is a better year for everyone

You are *awesome*. My first post. Sniff. Thanks for looking it up. I'm still pathetic!!!

Happy New Year!!!
And to All A Good Night!!!
Talk to Y'all Next Year!!!

It's weird, because out in the world 2016 was really quite shitty, but inside my own personal little bubble it was actually a really good year. Definitely the best for me since 2009, by a mile.

And then I think, hang on--I had a cousin get stabbed in the neck and suffer permanent brain damage, I had another cousin commit suicide, I came to the realization that my brother will inevitably die early from alcohol or depression, I spent 2 hours a day for 3 months teaching my stepdaughter how to drive, we're spending so much money scaffolding her in her new life and we can't even use her college fund for it, I received hate mail from people I didn't even know... How is it that I have the impression that this was a good year for me? And yet it was.


I'm working with a guy right now, and he told me a story about how when he was young, he fell and broke his leg. And in the course of asking him about it, we realized that he remembers nothing of the pain, or the hospital, or being stuck inside for the rest of the winter, or the trapped nature of having a full-leg cast at a time when there was really no such thing as crutches for children. All he remembers is at school, someone had to carry him to class on their shoulders, and he felt like the king of the world. Breaking his leg is one of the fondest memories of his childhood.

I think there's something to that. I think we should try to be like him. I'm not as good at it as he is, for sure, but I'm trying.

I like that. I feel like my 2016 was pretty damn good. But when I look back on it and really analyze it, I should think it sucks. But it doesn't.

Yeah man. I had a great 2016. Only really remember not liking 2010. That was a rough patch. I made more money for me and the company than I ever have. I got engaged, Cohabitated, Cowboys are good. Fuck yeah. America!

Onwards, and upwards!

My 2016 was decent as well. Way too much job shit...but money has been ok, health ok, friends ok despite cancer scares and other shit.

Happy fuckin New Year!

Mine sucked more than any year in memory... and that's a lot of memory.

My 2016 was good as well. I Ended the year with a bang, except for celebrities dying all the time. Let's just not talk about the election. Even though I'm becoming more and more Deplorable.

My 2016 has been all about overcoming challenges and still staying upbeat. I struggled to deal with the divorce and not let it tear me down. I struggled to find the perfect house for me. I found it, but then had to put a lot of money into it and in the process the guy who did not finish cleaning up the overgrown landscaping threatened to sue me for the rest of the money (I had given him half down). That was nerve-wracking, but I powered through and now I don't hear from him anymore. Then I found out that I had tumors in my ovaries. I struggled to stay upbeat (and was pretty successful) while I went through the series of tests and then the surgery. Now, I'm struggling to come to terms with a cancer that is not common and will kill me. Its treatable and i will go through chemo, but it is not curable. The only question now is when it will get so bad that nothing can be done and nobody can give me a timetable on that. Maybe 3 months, maybe 6, and maybe even a year or two. So my burden now is working out how to stay positive and upbeat. Because if I'm going to be all morose about it, then I might as well kill myself now, which I don't want to do.

Throughout this year I have been really successful at keeping my chin up even though it probably was the suckyest year ever for me. I always told myself that the strongest steel is forged by the fires of hell. So I hope as 2017 rolls along I will get stronger and not remember the pain of the last year.

You *sound* strong and upbeat, and that's more than half the battle.

Damn, sorry Pico.

I'm sorry that you have to face this. But I admire your attitude about it all.

What BigV, Clodfobble and glatt said. Hugs to you, Pico.


Sent by magic.

Fuck cancer.

Fuck cancer big time. Keep your chin up and stay in the game, Pico. It ain't over till it's over.

thanks everyone..

El, right. So Ill be a bit schizophrenic while doing it, I cant think of any other way.

You can sing, you can get fat; but, don't get fat and sing at the same time.

....and I be mean and bitchy just because I am.

NYE
 

Two years running, winter camping on NYE. Hiked and snowshoed, played some word games with the ladies, read some Thay, rested my brain and body. I'm pleased.

Looks chilly

Glad you had fun though.

Sorta brisk out. Thanks man, fun it was.

It is our experience that "they" verge on the pessimistic when the cancer or the specific occurrence of the cancer is rare and uncurable. They won't tell you because they have no idea, there isn't enough data, they don't want to give false hope. That doesn't mean there is no hope. So determine that you will create the data and it will be positive data for all who follow. You are in a fantastic position to be a ray of light for all who follow. It might get you in the end, and it might be sooner rather than later, but who knows what else was in store for you anyway? It's my unscientific and baseless opinion that predicted demises can be self fulfilling prophesies. Why do you need a deadline anyway? If you have something you want to do ....DO IT. Do it now. everyone should live by this maxim, cancer or no, IMO. Who knows when the next texting driver or nutter with a gun will hover too close to your orbit anyway? Carpe Diem. You got this.

/preach-scuseme-bitpassionateaboutthis

Yup, thanks.

The fact that I am still working on some things, is making it a real tough process. But, no, I wont give up.

This. If they estimate high, and the patient goes early, the family accuses the doctor of botching the treatment. If they estimate low, and the patient lives, hooray, they get to be a hero.

My uncle was told he had six months to live at the absolute most. He said something akin to "like hell I am," and instead he went into remission and lived half a dozen years before something unrelated happened to get him. Meanwhile my father-in-law was told patients with his kind of tumor lived between 14 months and 10 years. Weird place to put the lower estimate, we thought. But it was clear my father-in-law was fatalistic about the whole thing, and sure enough, he died exactly at 14 months. I'm certain he chose to, on one level or another.

Oops, I meant selfish

Game on.

My college roommate was found to have ALS and it was kind of enlightening to finally realize: in this life, we all get the same sentence he does, he just knows what the sentence is.

There's John Ritter, has an aortic problem one day and just is suddenly dead, no warning. Is that better... I dunno...

Clod, my optimism is fatalistic. Always has been.

Ut, and there's that to think about.

So, I thought a bit on it, and....

There are a lot of different logistical, emotional and whatnot to go through when you know, but don't know when, or even if you did know when. It's fucking exhausting, and I fear, ongoing.

But, I am the super, over-analyzing queen. I'd prefer it to be out of nowhere and sudden.

And there this....https://m.curiosity.com/topics/luck-...ontent=link182

Count me in. I'd hate to be in the decider position although in all likelihood I will be someday.
Truth.

Ugghh.. Came here to say how many awful things happened in my little world and how tough 2016 was for me ... boo hoo hoo and all that.
Thanks for the readjusted perspective. 2016 terminated some bad things for me and 2017 is nothing less than a blank opportunity for me. I am fortunate that some people still talk to me, let alone actually love me. lol.
My life has been weird for the last 4-5 years. I feel like the last good year I had was 2011. I had 2 jobs in my life till then and since I've had 5 in 5 years. As I reflect upon why, I keep confusing my self worth with my employment. (Gotta work on that too)

Happy New Year all you degenerates. Keep on Keepin' on!
Pico - I' d like to give you a huge awkwardly long hug and just say thanks.