What's making you act like a dick or a bitch today?
 

Me, forgetting to breathe. Mind-reading. Short-timer syndrome (weekend coming up.) General malaise. Boredom. Loneliness. Worry. Lack of sex (whatever the fuck that is.) Bad hair. Belly.

How 'bout you?

Breathing (and being mindful of it) can get you through a lot.

Keep doing that...the rest will assume the proper places in your head.

As for what's grinding my gears: all the normal shit...but: I'm expert at 'breathing'... ;)

I'm itchy. It's making me verrrrry tetchy. I'm not in a bad mood, just a bit of a hair trigger...

Oh, and yeah, what henry said: breathing is the shiznit.

Being itchy and/or hot can make me touchy too.

And sometimes my hair makes me insane. I could just rip it out of my head.

I've been working on breathing and I'm getting much better. :)

being.

;)

They say that to really become an expert at something, you have to devote 10,000 hours to practicing it. According to my calculations, I've practiced breathing for 401,790 hours or so. So I must be some kind of breathing Kreskin over here.

edit: I forgot about leap days, so had to alter my calculations.

kreskin fresh!

I guess I just never applied myself when it came to breathing. It was just something that I did. I didn't much care if I was very good at it. And look at the price I've paid. I always thought "fuck this I'm never going to need this breathing shit" and now it's saving my life.

(Of course you all know we're talking about remembering to breathe in times of stress or anxiety, consciously getting those deep breaths of oxygen. It really does help me. Most of the time. I had a bad day Wednesday but it's going OK again.)

And really, with my advanced scuba training you'd think I would know something about regular breathing. It's like, one of the first things you learn, to breathe steadily. After the initial shock that you can breathe freely under water.

I jest, but I'm glad it's helping you.

Migraine courtesy of Nemo. Vomiting all night every night this week. No sleep since last August. Chills and sweats that take up whatever part of the night that vomiting doesn't. Blurry vision and curtains of floaters that swish back and forth as I try to read.

Okay - cancel all that. What monster said (elegant and efficient, you are!).

Dick - Just me bein me.

Ow Ortho. The no sleep thing is rough by itself but a migraine and hurling?

You must have been a republican in a previous life...

Sorry about ur whole self.

Oh Ortho am I on [un]friendly terms with storm migraines. I could almost feel Nemo drifting by thinking to myself 'no no where is the dark room and no sound'. I hope yours is short-lved.

I hate my hair too! Who knew?

I also ate too many flavored jelly beans albeit one at a time which is the only way to eat gourmet but I digest....[blech]

Migraine ... it feels so good when it stops. Almost a euphoria. Thanks, Nirvana, maybe your good thoughts chased this one away!

I must have been a republican or worse in a previous life, foot - if there's no rest for the wicked then I must have been very. What I wouldn't give for one good night's sleep with no chills, sweats, or hurling.

I've never heard of storm migraines before. Are they like cluster headaches?

Its like the shape of my sinuses is off and my skull is a barometer. I don't know what cluster headaches are these are full on vomiting, eye bulging, light sensitivity migraines. I get them when there are severe storms on the way. I don't need a weather forecast. Don't always get them either >shrug<

That sounds awful. Cluster headaches are apparently the most painful thing a human can endure, if wikipedia is to be believed.

When the barometer drops with a big storm, I get storm migraines like Nirvana. I had one episode of cluster headaches back in med school. While they were going on they occurred at precisely the same time each day (3:01 am, I remember well) and lasted 40 minutes; then one day they just stopped. They were bang-your-head-against-the-wall excruciating, but the good thing is you know they'll be gone in a few minutes. A really bad migraine (some of which have also made me bang my head against a wall) that continues through sleep and goes on for hours or days is worse, I think, if only because the misery is prolonged and you don't know when it'll end.

The bone pain from Neulasta on my first chemo cycle (later cycles weren't as bad) and my worst couple of migraines are the worst pains I've ever had. Labor and surgery were easier.

jesus :(

Ouch.

Well, 3:01 seems odd. Are you sure it wasn't 4:00 am?

Luckily not ... from 4 to 6 am is the biological nadir when people are most likely to die. Dodged that bullet!

I so didn;t need to know that!!

I hate needles. Why do nurses have to wake you up all night long just to see if you are alive?? Oh,you are not going to stick anything up my butt. Forget it.End of subject

.. because you're so damned cute?

don't think so babe. i'm looking pretty rough. i appreciate the thought! BTW, I brought the book you sent me. Everybody gets a big laugh. Now that is so damned cute!

Hospitals are the place of no sleep. :(
Also of horrible tests you never knew existed. Feel better so you can get home and get some sleep!

Check your email on Valentines Day. I keep my promises ;)

I know every thing I have done is pointless. My dream are just that I will never achieve them and have truly given up on any kind of success. Survival is my new goal if I can just survive not make anything great or meaningful not change the world not help just survive. I know I will never be happy I have accepted that. I am not depressed, just clear. I see how things arc in my life. Just survival is all that can be truly accomplished.

I'm broken and can't be fixed. I once was a person of importance with a family. Now, I am a shell of what I was. I am coming to terms with it and simply putting one foot in front of the other. You made a good point & I agree. We all must accept the road we travel now which was built on the mistakes of when we were young and invincible.

When we were young and invincible. I know the thing you speak precise.

Sarge, not to make light of what you are going through but you could re-frame your experience in a positive light. In many ways you are in an enviable position; you are a clean slate and free to re-invent yourself. Obviously, you have a more limited set of choices than you did when you were young and invincible, but you are now older and wiser and in a better position to see what didn't work in the past and make new choices based on that.

The hardest part is letting go of what you want or wanted, letting go of the desire for something you can't have.

Amen to that, Ed Earl.

Good words, Foot.
They speak to me too. But I have a reversible health condition.
I'll take on board what you and Tora and Sarge say and remember I need to sort myself the fuck out while I still can.

NB - no sarcasm in the above post. Sorting out is needed and kind words help.

I'll vouch for that shit. I'm having a blast.

Jim, you are my current hero and role model. (Not sure if that is a good thing or not)

rAmen brother.

I'll put an intestinal blockage against cluster headaches on the pain-o-meter. Especially since a blockage can go on for 24 hours or more.

peristalsis: the irresistible force.

I'll give you the benefit of the doubt, but day-um.

Oh yeah. Constant pain will make you rethink having been born.

Well I might have to give a little on this one. But I'd say it's a close race.

Women I know who have Crohn's also say that they'd rather give birth than have a blockage.

Ow. What causes the blockage, do things just stop moving and get impacted or super dessicated? Or is it an almighty inflammation that closes up the pathway?

In either case it must not be good if it comes on after you've had a few meals. Would it make a difference if your GI were empty?

going to do some research now.

I'm back from researching.

You win. I'd rather have cluster headaches. I don't even know where I'd start if I had Crohn's. I'm never going to complain again. I guess I need to find a new hobby, then.

Inflammation causes your intestines to become a teeny tiny pathway. Along comes some roughage and you've got a plumbing problem. It's too far along the digestive path to throw up. So your system keeps on trying to push it past tissue that is already inflamed and painful. The roughage will eventually pass once it has rotted.

The chest burster scene in Alien was inspired by the author's Crohn's disease.

that's what I was vouching for. I just realized that I forgot to quote you in my post.
I'm assuming you understood for what I vouched. verily.

and you?
you seem to be having a fun time, in general.


This too shall pass, Sarge.

After reading all that, I think I'll just go bang my shin on the tow bar of my car, just to experience how little it hurts. :eek:

I banged my shin on the door frame of the car the other day, and hit my head on the roof almost simultaneously. My great thanks go to the parcel delivery lady who pulled up where I couldn't see her - and didn't hear either - and then tooted the horn while I was trying to strap the baby in her harness.

It hurt. I still have a lump on my shin.