More Than Pretty...
 

I want her to come back. Granted, we did not get along; and I view her as a jealus cunt; but I have missed her ~ and am feeling some anxiety. If she does not come back within the next few days I will have to leave...

I just will not be able to go on like this. If any1 sees her; please let her know I have been unbanned and would like to make amends ~ properly with her...

Thank you,
Pam.

This would be a lot more convincing if you didn't also call her a jealous cunt P

I would modify the post if I could. As I started typing the post, I remember how she got mad one night and bumped every thread in order to get my thread on the 2nd page. She did this for no reason...

And it was allowed I suppose. Still, I should not have said that. If you do see her around; please let her know I am looking for her...if she even remember who I am.

Thank you,
Pam.

Oh.... she remembers.

Really??! How do you know? Have you spoken to her?? Please...don't leave me hanging like this... How come she has not posted?? I really want to know...

Pam.

I don't know. She probably wants to destroy your soul.

well, at least spit on it.

Yeah. That too.


Gotta say, pointing out that you view someone as a jealous cunt is an interesting way to clothe an olive branch lol.

Cognitive dissonance. Pam haz it.

What is this?? I was going to leave for now; but now you have forced my hand. I will Google 'Cognitive Dissonance.' I will do that; and I am sure it will be something deragatory...

Perhaps, MTP has more kindness in her heart that you would think. I know that I called her 'bitter scorn' last time I was here - and she did not like that. But other poster agreed that she can be 'bitter scorn' at times...

We will know nothing until she shows up ~ if she chooses to. I am extending the olive branch to her.

Pam.

have you googled it yet?

does it sound eerily...familiar?

I did look at it. But my diagnosis has been Histrionic Personality Disorder; which is a bit different. I was not always like this; but then I guess something happened...

Have you spoken to MTP??

Pam.

I have not spoken to MTP.

Are you in love with her? Your fixation on MTP is worrisome.

maybe you are a stalker of some sort? maybe you moved to NJ b/c NY kicked you out for some shady reason? See? You are not as smart as you think as I can figure out your game. HA!

freakily,
Bri

I got fired; and my landlord (not the one who died) but another one was dealing drugs out of the building. I also had a minor breakdown, and needed to get away. Erica scorned me; but she was never the lipstick lesbian that I so desire... I will not obsess over MTP anymore; but I fear someone has trampeled upon her heart; and she is in seclusion dealing with the pain of love gone wrong...

Always~
Pam

Perhaps you are right.

perhaps, as you fear, someone did trample on her heart and she is now in seclusion on some island in the Pacific. Perhaps she needs to be alone to contemplate the nature of love, life and lime rickeys. Maybe she's mainlining heroin. No one knows. No one can know until MTP logs on and sets us straight. but let's not let that interfere with our story of her.

Now you go. What is MTP doing right now?

Crossing the road?

I am not sure what she is doing; and I forget where she is from. For some reason, her and I got off on the wrong foot. In fact, I think when I arrived here, I should have delayed my arrival until I was in a better state of mind. In fairness to me; I believe I am improving...
Time will tell...

Your friend,
Pam.

Jeez! Now I remember why I didn't remember Pensive Pam. Good thing I work this weekend and won't be around much. :cool:

PS Someone remind me to stay out of Homebase for a while.

I believe MTP was considering changing her name to MTB. Can anyone confirm?

Thank you for the information. What does MTB stand for?? I saw that you participated on my thread which was on another part of this site. Unfortunately, for now, I am only staying in Home Base where I feel safe. I did like your reply though. I would like to post a video in your honor... It is by MC 900 foot Jesus. In case the link does not come through...just go onto Youtube and type that in...

http://youtu.be/LA-AvBjBm5k

Pam.

MTP I miss you.
That's all.

First off, in order to be taken seriously, you must properly spell insults.

Secondly, Dale Carnegie wrote a book called "How to Win Friends and Influence People." You're doing it wrong.

Thirdly, the count is now oh and one, no runners on. I do not see a walk as likely.

Your therapist is getting it wrong.

I don't like it, Wolf.
Can you make it go away?

Out of curiosity, how would you call it?

Garden variety carzee?

301.83

Just a little ways down the street from Histrionic Personality Disorder (301.50). She can keep the histrionic features, if they're really important to her.

That's scary accurate.

I thought the histrionic one was even closer though. Mind you, closer to what's being presented, rather than what's present, if that makes sense?



[eta] http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0002498/

That's why I'm adding the "with Histrionic features" specifier. But this is totally the kind of pushme-pullyou, loveyou-hateyou, and splitting that borderlines do as a matter of general course.

Histrionics are just dramatic and sometimes whiny about it. Borderlines work very, very hard at finding and pushing all of your buttons to the point where you want to kill them. Or at least burn them a little, with a cigarette. But they probably beat you to that already, did it themselves, and blamed you for their actions.

*nods slowly* With a cigarette you say?

ok. I see that.


I have zero knowledge of these things outside of google :p

DanaC is more correct in her assessment; as this is the main mental disorder I have been diagnosed with. Keep in mind that some of them overlap. I have always been nice to you Wolf; but it appears you have turned on me; and messed up my tribute thread to MTP...

The more I type, the more mad I am getting. From what accredited university, did you earn your PHD in psychiatry?? I am sure the forum woud like to know! Perhaps you can diagnose us all. If we took a poll; there are people in more need of mental help than me. I assure you that...

Maybe I am just cranky because of the snow; and being cooped up like a damn animal all day. You try having to have that; adn take medications that have bad side effects...and see how you feel.

Pam.

Too late.

Or perhaps my definition of "messed up" is different?

Yes, it is. You messed up my thread for her. And I hope she sees it; and gets mad at you NOT me. I used to like you ~ but what happened to you???

Perhaps I should have called you 'bitter scorn' back then. I did not realize at the time that she was sad that somone had trampled upon her heart. DanaC knows what happened I think. (I would have to go back and re-read what she posted about MTP.)

I do not think you should post during your menses; if that is the case. I am sure you are perfect?? You are creating drama. I will not be the scapegoat this time. Every1 can see what you are doing to me...

Pam.:sniff:

wolf eht htiw og ... etarucca ylgninethgirf

Is this a Halloween costume party?

Are you speaking of the photo in my profile?? I told you I was simply average looking; what did you expect??? I do try to dress nicely so improve myself...

And do not forget, I am somewhat of a redhead. I can scratch your fucking eyes out bucko!! Just give me an excuse...

Pam.

i think, in the scrolling of this thread and not reading every post.....that i have much better things to do. like jerking off to internet porn. really? wt freakin hell. better yet...i'm going to go cook dinner. steel head fillets on the grill.

no.
really?
this shit again?
ugh.

Bucko? Now you are making fun of me and I will eat your eyeballs.

Dear Nirvana: Doesn't that Plithijinx guy look like the inbreed guy from the movie 'Delieverance??' He is creepy; and in dire need of a shirt... I bet the nearest paved road is 75 miles from his house!

City Slicker,
Pam.

One gal's creepy is another real gal's hottie. :)

Both qualities which I find recommend him highly.

Well, that and he's a nice guy, and all.

Well, yah!

Now we do know that Ms. Pam appears not to be predisposed to liking gentlemen, which may color her opinion and impair her ability to get to know someone.

And yet "she" sucks up to the two gentlemen she knows capable of banning her and not the female.... :eyebrow:

:lol:

I think Pam needs a time out


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74.75 come on pam...get it right. (nice turn on the sense of humor there....might be hope for ya!)

IF i read between the lines. however i respect the wolf and i go with the flow. not in a lemming way but in a traffic kind of way. yeah i have traffic where i live. even in the boonies of houston texas. cattle drives block intersextions...cops on horses downtown...kids trying to kill my coworkers with go karts....electrical engineering during the day. wanna make a porno? i'll fire up my new nikon with you and jenna jameson.

Well, maybe you are OK. Wolf alluded to the fact that I have mental issues... every1 does to an extent; but not the way she puts it...

The most disturbing person here is Monster. Mentally derragned from birth. Nirvana is not far behind... I am the most stable of you all at times...

Pam.

Pam, you're the one who busted out the crazy card ...

PP that was supposed to be our little secret remember?

This is not true. Please show me the post? I did have to go away for a while; and I understand why that had to happen...

But, I am better now. I can tell you; and you can read my posts; I am feeling better. But now I am not because already people are calling to give me another 'time out.' I am not bothering any1...

This is why I did not want to venture out of Home Base; but now I see that the locusts are coming here to cause me emotional damage... That is very evident with Monster, Nirvana, and Pthflux...

Where is their 'time out' may I ask. And then they say I sucked up to people here?? What have I done? I do like Mr. Undertoad, and I do like Glatt. How is that sucking up if I am sincere??

There are a lot of malcontents here...and I am having some wine. I quit smoking...did I tell you that??

Smokeless in the storm,
Pam.

Your words, not mine.

Park Ave near 20th street?

Who took that photo?

I took a closer look at the sidewalks. That's uptown.

A friend took the photo. How did you know the location? Obviously, it's Park Ave. I went in for an interview at Barnes & Noble on 17th street...went to 'coffee shop', then some BBQ place on Park...

I love Union Square...although, I do not think you guessed where the photo is from; as you are not from here...

Pam.

No, it's actually Park Ave. South. Once you cross 42nd street, perpendicular, Park Ave becomes Park Ave. South...

Pam

I grew up just north of NYC and my dad worked on park at 20th. I spent a lot of time there.

Not sure if I can believe you. If this is true...this could be a break through for us. Tell me something about NY that only a true NY'er would know...if you can... in return you can ask me anything...

Pam.

photo? what photo? link please.

It's on her user profile.

Pam, why would footfootfoot lie to you about his personal experience?

Listen you fucking Pedophille...you can see me in my profile; and you can jerk your fucking cock to me...you are a sick fucker!!!

You are here causing a distrubance!!!

Pam.

Take a couple of deep breaths and try to find your happy place.

Now. What brought that on?

pedo? go off? you rEAALY WANT ME TO GO THERE?