How Come everyone
 

is so much smarter, prettier, clever-er, better educated, more informed, has better stuff, smarter children, wittier lines (eg. Oh, yes I said it!), and knows where all the silver goes on a formal dining table?

why am I so fucking small and insignificant? why can't I say cliche lines and get away with it?

why does my arm still hurt and NOBODY will help me? I hear things like this, "OH, well....5mg of percocet every EIGHT hours is A LOTof medication!!! NOBODY has EVER had that much medication---ever!!!!!! AS a matter of fact, you should be dead via overdose by now...and no, we can't give you anything stronger---there simply ISN"T anything stronger!!"


"Nurse, there are PLENTY of stronger things. Percocet 7.5 mg or 10 mg leap to mind....I'm not asking for fentanyl here, sister, just a leg up,"

Why do I feel so blackish in my soul? they want me to get radiation but EVERYTHING was neg---the breast tissue, the (24) nodes they cut out and now I'm supposed to say---hey, bring more shit on! with NO pain relief! Kwel!!!!


I hate the medical establishment and I have a voice mail in to tell them.
despite my god given PATIENT rights to have my port taken out during breast surgery, my surgeon REFUSED to do it.

They suck and they lie and you are one of the funniest laugh-out-loud-swallow-coffee-before-reading bitches out there, you have a kid going to uni on a scholarship, you've beaten that motherfucking tumour, you've dealt with the dodgy prof and you're still going to school. Fuck it Bri, hiow much more perfect do you want to be? OK painfree, there's one I can't help nuch with, sorry. I only have acetaminphen in, but I'd mail it to you in a heartbeat :(

Also, most people only share the stuff they are proud of and good at, so you aren't getting an honest sample of what other people are.

I'm not feeling prettier. I don't have better anything and my attempts at comfort make me only feel invisible. That said I'll keep trying.

I don't know why the medical establishment is so stingy with pain killers and pain management. I have a family member going through some horrific pain so I can empathize. I know empathy dosn't solve anything for you especially from the uncool but empathize I must.

~best wishes~

* goes to light an incense in your honor because there isn't anything better I can do about it*

How come everyone...lol! That's funny because that was what everyone else was just thinking.
:D

Better quit complaining about the durgs to the health pros. or they will give you less. Or worse, switch you to something milder..so uhh... Shhhh! Oh yea..you don't wanna go there.

That's true. I always think of you as beautiful, smart, witty. I know your children are smarter than mine, 'cause i don't have any. ;)

I can set a formal dining table, only from working for the richies for some years, ya know?

I suck at pretty much everything, AND I'm a big fat ugly pig-head with no friends and no life. So THERE!

Bri, you rock the planet as far as I can tell!

mwuah

Is she a lumberjinxgirl?

and thank-y for them purty :flower:

no...just some pic i found. the bouquet was the parameter, but i like the look on the girl's face.

Her forehead is too big. And her hair is too thin.
Sorry.

Bri your only problem is your self image.
We all think you're wonderful.

So that's one vote that you don't matter and all the rest say you matter a LOT! You're out-voted. :-)

Now live damn it!

That's what Bri will look like when she's 95. ;)

... which is why she looks like one of LJ's :D

But srsly Bri - you really ARE one of the good guys. Can't you feel the waves of lurve reaching across the Pond to getcher?

It's all pretense on teh part of the other people. All of it.

"Teh part," aye. Man it is hard to type "teh" deliberately. The sort of thing makes a man suck a tooth and murmer, "Quel fromage!" bitterly.

Well, Bri... :grouphug:

Maybe put the Ode To Joy on Repeat Play until the clouds lift?

"Ja, wer auch nur eine Seele, sein nennt auf dem Erdenrund!"

I have apparently pro[?]gressed to the point where I can type it deliberately without trying to, or indeed without even knowing that I'm doing so.

if to progress means to move forward or accomplish, and regress means to lose ground or back up......does gress mean to stay still or maintain your current level?

Am I overstanding this properly?

And then there's digress, which I guess means you've gressed to the point that you have died.

~snip~grad, gress
step
gradual, progression, transgression~snip~

If you've died, you've gained (a plot of) ground. Therefore, digress = progress. ;)

Yes, yes it does. I'm feeling enlightened and engressed. : pensivelook:

Or imagine tw and UG naked and wrestling in a pit of Jello :lol:

kill or cure, baybay

Oh god, there's a mental image that'll bring tears to your eyes....

I invested in brain-bleach shares before posting :D

Bri your only problem is your self image.
We all think you're wonderful.[/quote]


And SG says it best.

If it makes you feel better, I sucked ass fencing last weekend and was a complete bastard at practice last night.

Oh, don't be modest...you've always been a bastard.

Thanks for the support, my brother. :D

:greenface

I can't believe you just said that.....

At least I know the final decision on the alcohol induced labotomy I was thinking about giving myself.

Hi Brianna

I just want to know if things are better for you right now. I hope that your moral is better with the spring that is finally arriving. And the support that your friends gave you.
I think that love is the best drug it help you forget the suffering.

that is sooo sweet of you!

and, actually, yes---things are better. thanks! :)

Your morals are better in the spring? :unsure:

Brianna, my dear. You know that you are stronger than Altoids Mints and I dig you in a way that is only possible for completely straight intimate strangers.

I think that's what I meant to say, anyway. It's heading into the end of the shift, and I stopped actively using my brain about an hour and a half ago. I'm on autopilot, and I just hope I haven't strayed into the mountains.

To bruce---actually, yes. They ARE better in the Spring because I suffer from SAD in a very real and legally binding way. When the sun shines I am 50% OR MORE a better, nicer person. I know: it's obvious that I should move to a sunny locale.

and wolf---honey, I've no idea what you mean by your post except that you think I am stronger than dirt* (or, altoids) and that you like me (which makes me happy as I like you and think you are one hilarious woman and yes, I DO know how you feel about addicts, etc, and I don't take offense) so, you've no reason to stray into the mountains unless you want to; and if you do, have fun, but come back soon.

*"stronger than dirt" is what the Doors say at the end of "Touch Me," which was an Ajax slogan. The last four chords of the song are the same as the Ajax commerical--and was Morrison's way of getting back at the rest of the doors who wanted to let Buick use "Light my Fire" in an ad which Morrison thought was sacreligious.

Oh... moral not morals.

morale

mushrooms?

mo·rale /məˈræl/
–noun emotional or mental condition with respect to cheerfulness, confidence, zeal, etc., esp. in the face of opposition, hardship, etc.: the morale of the troops.

mor·al /ˈmɔrəl, ˈmɒr-/
–adjective 1. of, pertaining to, or concerned with the principles or rules of right conduct or the distinction between right and wrong; ethical: moral attitudes.
2. expressing or conveying truths or counsel as to right conduct, as a speaker or a literary work; moralizing: a moral novel.
3. founded on the fundamental principles of right conduct rather than on legalities, enactment, or custom: moral obligations.
4. capable of conforming to the rules of right conduct: a moral being.
5. conforming to the rules of right conduct (opposed to immoral): a moral man.
6. virtuous in sexual matters; chaste.
7. of, pertaining to, or acting on the mind, feelings, will, or character: moral support.
8. resting upon convincing grounds of probability; virtual: a moral certainty.
–noun 9. the moral teaching or practical lesson contained in a fable, tale, experience, etc.
10. the embodiment or type of something.
11. morals, principles or habits with respect to right or wrong conduct

mo·rel (mə-rěl', mô-) ey
n. Any of various edible mushrooms of the genus Morchella and related genera, characterized by a brownish spongelike cap.

Yabut, Bill said moral. ;)

Sorry for the bad English, next time I'll write in french.

Oui, oui.

No problem Bill, English speakers make the same mistake all the time and they don't have an excuse. :thumb:
I just made a joke out of it, but nobody got it.... no reflection on you.

BB - tis just a joke
Don't you dare stop posting because of your (supposed) problems with English.

We have a Chinese Dwellar (Billy) who doesn't post in perfect English, but he has a huge fan-base here. York is Dutch and we wait breathlessly for his pictures. And then we have the Americans who are dyslexic (Zippy for example) who are completely let off the hook re spelling and grammar.

I say good for you if you are willing to take on all the challenges of informal language!

Dear Brianna, it's obvious to me that you are much loved and welcomed and all the usual suspects here are giving you lifts with their jabs which proves the point - if nobody cared then nobody would answer you. You have my envy coz I have been busy over the ski season and am busy now - it's hard for me to follow all these wonderful people's thoughts in the cellar and they are wonderful. You have over 7000 posts and I'm not even into my century. You are also have your own style which is different to mine and the others - it is not inferior. It's you. We like you B.

:) I am, ici, very happy because of all the things you said up there!

I am getting better...really.

Oh dear -- are you severing connections with LabRat? The humanity...

Lime jello, just because, or maybe orange jello with mandarin orange segments -- for refreshment between bouts?