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Munchkin 06-05-2006 09:29 AM

Im a frickin lunatic
 
OK guys... Im not a frequent user on here, but I was hoping I could get some input, and maybe find a few people in a similar situation.

I just get rediculously sad sometimes. I just get hysterical and cry for seemingy no reason. For example. I had a pretty good weekend, and then last night I went to bed aroudn 11:00 with my boyfriend... all of a sudden I felt all weighed down and started to cry... didnt fall asleep until maybe 1AM... Then again this morning.. I was ok, but then I looked at my online banking thing and noticed that one place overcharged me by $5 bucks...and I got hysterical again... Just a few months ago, I was taking the train to work and it was crowded, so I was in the area in between trains (do it all the time).. the conductor came through and told me I couldnt be there so I moved inside.... started crying... cried on and off all day...

Ive had these mini depressions (never last too long...weeks rather than months...sometimes even just days...or hours) for a long time.. I always just attributed them to low self esteem and being alone.... but now I am in a relationship... still low self esteem but just really dont care as much about my appearance now... and yet I still just get painfully sad and anxious....

My family has a history of this... my mom took some hormones and got better, but the timeing of her bouts was always when she had too much estrogen... With me, it could be any time ...

I dont really want to go to a psychiatrist because its not like im bi polar, and im not clinically depressed.... Im just really really really sad sometimes... more often than I should be...

Anyone else like this?

LabRat 06-05-2006 09:51 AM

Would you not go to a doc because you just have a hairline fracture, not a 'real' broken bone with blood and gore and everything? If this is something that has been recurring, (over years) and is increasing in frequency and or duration, get thyself to a psychiatrist/psycologist/conselor right away. Just do it. Explain to him/her exactly what you said here (print it and let them read it if you are embarassed).

Like you, I felt like my littel 'episodes' were only little, so what was the big deal. And I was ON medication already. An appointment with a new doc, a new pill, and I swear after only 2 weeks I am a new woman. Well, more precicely, the one I used to be.

Please don't let your pride get in the way of a happy life. Good luck. Please stay in touch here. PM me if you want!

Munchkin 06-05-2006 10:00 AM

Hi labrat, thanks for the response...

I guess Im just afraid of overstating the situation maybe... And also that if I was to take meds, I wouldnt know if they were working for a long time because I can sometimes go 4 or 5 months without an out of the ordinary episode...

I think a lot of it is that I dont trust myself... I dont know if this is just normal ... or if Im a subconscious attention seeker... ugh...

I probably should just bite the bullet and go... Its not about pride.. I woudnt be embarassed to go or to talk... I just dont know if my situation is 'bad enough' (which you addresses...and yes if I was phsycally ill id send my butt right to the doctor... I dont know why this seems so different... maybe because if my leg hurts, I know that I did something to my leg...but if Im sad, maybe Im just supposed to be sad... maybe I dont like my job and thats why I cried at night.... ugh... I dunno)

Trilby 06-05-2006 10:33 AM

Munchkin. You need to go. Labrat is 100% right--re-read her post. You deserve to be well. Now. Go to a doctor. I love the idea about printing what you wrote in your first post if you need help articulating to the doc. You are sad enough to need some help.

Munchkin 06-05-2006 10:46 AM

Thanks guys... youre right...maybe I just needed some encouragement... I will call and make an appointment

wolf 06-05-2006 12:35 PM

I'm going to jump on the "go see someone, and not just your family doctor" bandwagon. A little professional support can go a long way.

Trilby 06-05-2006 12:46 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Munchkin
Thanks guys... youre right...maybe I just needed some encouragement... I will call and make an appointment

:comfort: and remember to be a good Munchkin and actually GO to the appointment, OK? :)

skysidhe 06-05-2006 03:45 PM

no, BUT

stress coupled with a physical illness.loss of job,stress and having to work 15 hour days did make me feel a little fragile.Not depressed but tired all the time. I finally went to the doctor and a blood test revealed an abnormal thyroid. I would get weepy but usually not until after I let my guard down after a work week as I described.

Go to your medical doctor 'first' and rule out anything physical.

skysidhe 06-05-2006 04:40 PM

Mostly I just try not to take other peoples emotions into myself and being healthy makes that journey alot easier.

lumberjim 06-05-2006 04:53 PM

have you tried the reefer?

Aliantha 06-07-2006 03:22 AM

I'm with skysidhe. Go see a doctor first. Find out if there's a physical reason for your emotional state. I know at one stage I was carrying on like a fruitloop and it was all because my body couldn't cope with the birth control method I was using at the time. It caused my body to store iron which then revealed that I have a gene which means I'm more suceptible to a particular liver disorder...blah blah blah...what it came down to was my birth control was causing me to be eratic in my behaviours to the point of breakdown. (the stress I was under at the time certainly wasn't helping either)

Anyway, that's my blurb on this thread. I hope you get things sorted out soon Munchkin. Maybe you should check out the pms thread? ;)

Trilby 06-07-2006 06:49 AM

Any psychiatrist worth his/her salt will do a TSH level. That is standard. You don't need a family doc to run this interference for you. Psych's do blood work all the time.

Munchkin 06-07-2006 08:25 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Brianna
:comfort: and remember to be a good Munchkin and actually GO to the appointment, OK? :)

Will do....


Quote:

Originally Posted by skysidhe
Go to your medical doctor 'first' and rule out anything physical.

Actually have done that a few times... havent found anything.

Quote:

Originally Posted by lumberjim
have you tried the reefer?

Lol yes.... just a temporary bandaid though:) Cant afford to smoke as much as I like, but it does help most of the time. Sometimes unfortunately it heightens my anxiety..and Im a wierdo... I think back to things I said or did YEARS ago...even from my pre teens, and get freaked out about stuff that Im sure Im the only one who remembers... usually Im able to turn that paranoia like feeling off since I know exactly whats causing it hehee... the green bismuth usually calms me though...

Im also very lucky to have a boyfriend that knows when I get like that to just hold me and talk to me...My mother was unlucky...my father used to get angry at her when she cried, told her to "shake it off" *rolls eyes.


Quote:

Originally Posted by Aliantha
*snip* Anyway, that's my blurb on this thread. I hope you get things sorted out soon Munchkin. Maybe you should check out the pms thread? ;)

Thank you for your blurb :) .... I will check out that pms thread... Im sure it will be a good place to share stuff.. I know this isnt that though since the 'incidents' are spread out over my cycle...although the anger outbursts are usually during pms times hehe


Quote:

Originally Posted by Brianna
Any psychiatrist worth his/her salt will do a TSH level. That is standard. You don't need a family doc to run this interference for you. Psych's do blood work all the time.

Whats TSH ?

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Todays a good day... this is what usually happens when I finally decide to try to figure out whats going on with me... I have a good day...things are fine for a month or so...and I do nothing... I have to make myself do this though, because this has been going on for maybe 14 years....

skysidhe 06-07-2006 08:37 AM

Us poor women full of hormomes. It takes alot to keep our machine in balance.
Luckily we have those tears to tell us something is wrong and to act as an outlet valve.

otherwise we'd all be woman-terminators. :apistola:


well 'cept for me. I'm a damn Salmon.

Munchkin 06-07-2006 09:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by skysidhe
Us poor women full of hormomes. It takes alot to keep our machine in balance.
Luckily we have those tears to tell us something is wrong and to act as an outlet valve.

otherwise we'd all be woman-terminators. :apistola:


well 'cept for me. I'm a damn Salmon.

A Salmon? :confused:

LabRat 06-07-2006 09:17 AM

From the totem thread Munchkin...

Could be worse, you could be a gorilla. WTF is good about a gorilla?:eyebrow:

Trilby 06-07-2006 09:30 AM

Munchkin--TSH is a simple thyroid test. A low or non functioning thyroid can make a person crazy and depressed. Usually the first thing doc's rule out.

skysidhe 06-07-2006 09:57 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LabRat
From the totem thread Munchkin...

Could be worse, you could be a gorilla. WTF is good about a gorilla?:eyebrow:


I think gorillas are quite smart :) Furry and cute.( sometimes)

A salmon has a single mindedness to a task and then it dies. Yep that's me. :)



Quote:

Originally Posted by Brianna
Munchkin--TSH is a simple thyroid test. A low or non functioning thyroid can make a person crazy and depressed. Usually the first thing doc's rule out.

This is not very true. Her symptoms seem like they come and go. Like bi polar.
THOSE Crazy and depressed are NOT thyroid symptoms.




It is weight gain or inability to lose weight.
Extreme fatique - Is a constant.
Puffy
White
Low body temp


My determining factor. When I knew something was wrong.
Low body temp allowed allergies to attack my sinuses. No crying or craziness was happening. Go google definitions and symptoms first.


I am now feeling spunk once and awhile. I am still fatigued but I know I am getting better because I blow my nose alot. My sinuses are clearing and allergies aren't bothering me for the first time in years. Who knew how long I was carring a low thyroid. It is a sneaky illness not a mental one. lol Some people are never diagnosed unless a secondary physical problem arises. silly.

LabRat 06-07-2006 10:54 AM

My mother in law had some/all (not sure) of her thryroid removed due to cancer a long time ago. She takes Synthroid, a synthetic hormone. When her hormone(s) get out of whack, the family notices before she feels it. She turns into a royal bitch, and her poor husband gets the silent treatment for nothing. She also gets very insecure and jealous of him if he has to work late, take an overnight business trip etc. Thyroid hormones do in fact have secondary mood effects, I've seen it firsthand.

Trilby 06-07-2006 01:18 PM

sky--I was explaining to munch what a tsh test is. some people were advising her to go to her primary doc to get her thyroid checked out as sometimes a person having symptoms like munch will have an under functioning thyroid. I personally don't know if it's her thyroid--only a blood test will tell--she says she's been checked in the past and it wasn't body-related. I'm saying--deeeep breath--that any psychiatrist worthy of the name would check her thyroid before treating her for depression, that she didn't necessairily HAVE to go to her primary doc for this simple test.

skysidhe 06-07-2006 05:07 PM

My appologies to the both of you. It isn't my experience and it isn't on the symptom list either. The thyroid is the furnace of the body so I can't quite connect the emotional with that unless I am just more of the colder unfeeling bitch than I think I am.I was also physically freezing and having chest pains and those are on the symptom list too. Poor memory because obviously my heart wasn't pumping enough blood to my brain so I got brain fog alot. ( still do) It just takes a conserted effort to have hostile feelings so I didn't think so. I must be wrong.

let's all just take a pinch of salt :)




I agree any psychiatrist worthy of the name would check her blood levels first. absolutley

Munchkin 06-09-2006 09:30 AM

hehe I hope they test everything. I have a lot of different symptoms all over they place, but many can be attributed to other factors.... but they can test allll they want...and ill be sure to pay attention to what tests are suggested so I can know if theyre 'worth their salt' ...

My explainable symptoms : bitchiness - just my personality

fatigue: in not so great shape and sleep only 5-6 hours a night

weight problems : always been there (had my thyroid checked...not the issue).. just genetics is my assumption... now my activity level is down ..but even before it wasnt I was never at the correct weight for my height...way over it really



........ you called me munch:) ... ive been shortened.... I feel special :D ....


who knows though... this is the worst part about possible psychological issues...each symptom can usually be explained by something...or thougth to be explained by something...but who knows what is causing what? .. I hate that.


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