I am TOTALLY stealing that.

SonofV is even studying that industry in school. Very hopeful parent indeed.

Amen. Let me know when you get in the sandbox. I can send some great cigars for you & your section.

Another stab of Shame and Humiliation. Not even worth recording. Just more of the same, more of the shame. It's almost daily, now.

Dana is right: bullying, attempting to thwart any attempts at getting better.

I don't get it. Yes I know I need to take action. I know. Goddamit. I know. :(

PS I am going through these techie manuals and slowly finding my own way past the errors that have been occurring. I just recovered a bunch of virtual monies.

Way to go monkey. Way. To. Go.

Maybe I can plan a party and be showered with love and adulation.

Frying pan into fire?

Job and Family Services has an opening. My buddy came from JFS before we hired her at my previous job.

It would get me out of here. Bennies. Less driving. I'd be working with a lot of the same types of clientele I see now.

I'm going to at least apply.

EXCELLENT!!

Agency feels goooood, don't it?

I'm already talking myself down. It's a supervisory position. I've had supervisory experience, sure, but it'll probably go to a long-timer.

No. No. No.

I WILL try. I was just saying how come people can ask 'god' or the universe for a sign and report later getting it? Maybe this is what I asked for?

Please apply for the job. You've had supervisory experience, and maybe they're looking for a fresh eye on things :)

Thanks. :)

I'm already fretting. But I will try. Can't get it if I don't try.

A lot of times, supervisory positions go to new folks from outside the organization.

That's true. I am finding myself with the 'not good enough don't even bother' thoughts. Remnants of an abusive relationship and now an abusive (or at least, not conducive to my self-esteem) work environment. I'm overthinking it already.

S'ok...I have an appt with my therapist tomorrow. ;)

And:

Then you have the Int Dir...who just made it a point to stop and congratulate me on what I accomplished yesterday.

THAT's a manager. Maybe he sees how I'm being treated. Or he's just that nice. It was sure nice to hear something positive.

Managers love it when you bring money in. Shit like that is black and white, and even an inept one should be able to see the numbers. It's pathetic that the evil boss didn't say anything positive.

because evil boss is evil.

Or maybe he can see how good you are, or was impressed as fuck with you managing to recover those virtual monies. Sounds to me like you're now so conditioned to negative feedback that any positive feedback has to be taken in the context of that negativity. Actually, telling someone they've done a good job when they just managed to recover previously lost monies is the normal thing for a manager to do.*




* or indeed for a human being to do. Don't have to be more than averagely nice to praise the results of good work.